By Tuesday my mood quickly changed as I couldn't help but start to feel a pang of dread for the upcoming weekend.
Why am I worried for the weekend?? I work Monday to Friday and live for the weekend, but this week I just wasn't feeling it.
I was going to the horse races with my little work fam on the Friday night and I was invited to a friends wedding on the Saturday night.
That voice was in my head again, why are you worried Jessica? These are 2 really fun events, you've never been to the horse races and you never get invited to weddings...no idea why...🍷😝🍷😝🍷
Basically, I was being a 'Debbie Downer' and picking myself apart. You know when you just feel like utter crap?
My main struggles this week were as follows;
1. My skin hates me and it's favourite way to let me know this is by covering my face in angry spots... my skin really hated me this week.
Like seriously, my hair is candy floss and it has just literally been snapping off, bye hair 🙋🏼
My mind body and soul was not built to live on salads and green tea, but I don't like to be totally unhealthy!
Since I got back from my holidays I have not been back to the gym or even looked at a vegetable 😧 and I'm at that point where my clothes aren't fitting as nice as they were.
I attempted to get myself back on track last week. I totally hyped myself up, found a weight watchers plan I was ready to sign up to, packed my gym bag and then the all important thing, the dreaded scales. This was it, I was ready to see how much weight I had put on over my summer of feasting
"you can do it Jessica" my inner cheerleader said...I'm ready, I've got the scales, I usually get the best reading on that tile not that one, I'll just move it there first, right I'm ready...
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1
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why aren't they turning on?
Argh for gods sake man!
The bloody battery has gone!!
I don't believe this..the universe is against me!
I'm destined to be large and in charge forever!! 😵😵
What shall I do now?
Hmmm
I wonder what's in the fridge...
I'm buying a battery tomorrow so I'll try again this week 🙄
But my point really was that I thought I had nothing to wear because I felt too big to look nice.
Basically, I was just in a funk, and do you know what I needed before I could pull myself out of it? A good bloody cry!
Now I'm not a big cryer but sometimes you just need to shake off a bit of emotion. A bit like a tropical thunderstorm, you have a proper heavy down pour, then out of no where, the rain stops, the sun is out, and all is well again 🌞🌞
So what's the quickest way to have an emotional breakdown?
🙋🏼 I know!
Watch a sad movie!
So I watched 'Me Before You' which was a brilliant film and did exactly what I wanted/needed.
I had my own personal monsoon and I swear, as soon as the tears stopped its like I regained my clarity and knew exactly what I needed to do...
Pamper
I booked in at Baybay's nails and beauty in Lowfell for a new set of nails in a gorgeous nude gel with pearl mermaid skin over the top. I've been getting my nails done at Baybay's since she opened and these are my favourite by far, the picture doesn't do the colour justice! Even another customer in the shop said to me "those nails look really special" you're probably thinking, special? They're only nails! But I thought that was a lovely way to describe them and I agree, my mermaid nails are special and they made me feel better 💅🏼🙅🏼
Louise put a brown die on my roots and some low lights to break the blonde up so it wasn't a severe ombre and my hair is still predominantly blonde and I was so happy with the result.
By this point I'm starting to think, yeah weekend, come at me, I'm ready to take you on!!
Outfits
I was in such a rush to get ready I didn't get any photos before I left but my lovely husband took some when I got home...after a lot of wine and gin 😳
The Wedding
This dress is quite flattering as it sinches in at the waist with a simple but effective knot detail and the sparkley shoulders is a subtle touch of glam. I'm comfortable in this dress as I'm quite covered up, apart from the giant slit up to my thigh!
Yes I have dimples and orange peely legs, but the left one came out to play last night!
Tip of the Day
Now I'm not a cheapskate or anything but this wedding was at an expensive venue, it was a castle for goodness sake! So rather than leaving early to save the pennies I thought I would sneak some vodka in myself. Best way to do this is with a Capri sun container! Not the ones with a straw (obviously) but these ones..